Sometimes I get in these moods, I’m not sure if you all have noticed, where I get a little down or I get very pensive. During these moods I then proceed to blog about some of my inner most feelings.
Is this too much? Probably. But I don’t keep a journal and certain feelings you just can’t come out and say to another person. There is no way to easily slip it into a conversation.
Anyways, because of these posts where I unload a lot of personal thoughts and details about myself, it led me to realize something about the people who read my blog. (AKA whoever is reading this right now. It’s you.)
You guys actually know a lot of personal stuff about me that many people who actually know me don’t realize.
To be honest, no one that I know in real life reads my blog. Not even my close internet friends read it. I think people who actually know you don’t feel the need to pay that close of attention.
They already know you in real life, why would they need to read your blog? I mean, if it was something really important you would just tell them and not post it on your blog.
It seems a little backwards that people who actually know you don’t feel the need to pay that much attention. It should be the people who do actually know you who want to pay attention to you.
And the whole idea that if there was something important to say, you would say it to them is just completely false. At least for me.
You see, a lot of people I don’t trust with my most inner thoughts. Which seems a little weird seeing as I post them online and I don’t even have an anonymous blog.
But the thing about posting on my blog is that most people who read it aren’t really responding to me. In fact, most times when I post a serious post, most people don’t even like it.
But I think that is the best part about having a blog. I can post my thoughts without having to receive unwanted advice from those around me. Without having to hear the opinions of others or to have their sympathy.
Anyways, here is what I have realized, the people who read my blog know me in a very personal way that is very different from how people see me in real life. Not that I am hiding myself in real life, but just not showing a different part of me.
That different part is the part that my blog followers know. And when I realize this, I think about if I were to sit down with someone who has been consistently reading my blog. If we were to go to lunch or something, what sort of relationship would result from that. Would it be a deeper friendship than the ones I currently have with those around me? Or would it just be an awkward situation, like when you see someone for the first time after hearing one of their deepest secrets.
Basically, one of my followers is my soul mate. Stay tuned.Follow @corzgalore